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I'm Not in a Good Place

from Demolition Derby by Maddi Mae

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Most of the lyrics in this song are pulled directly from text messages with someone I thought was a friend. I wrote this song to express depression and loneliness and what it feels like when people ignore my very clear requests for help.

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I don’t know how
People ignore me
When I’m right here
Quite literally
Saying I need help
I’m not in a good place
I need someone
To help me save face

I’m strong, beautiful, talented, and hardworking
I’m not in a good place
Loving, fun, fiscally responsible, good at home-making
Someone help me save face
Up for adventure, full of drive and aspiration, intelligent
I’m not in a good place
Completely alone and unwanted x3
Goddammit, someone help me save face

I tried to show you
By example
How to love me
How to handle
When I’m suffering
And I need you
I tried to show you
But I displeased you

It’s okay, you don’t have to talk about it. I’m going through some stuff too, and I feel alone with it.
Man, I need you.
So I’m probably reaching out to you more because I try to give what I want to receive.
But I displeased you.
I realized I was doing that today. And you were mean, but I think it’s just because you protect yourself by pushing away.
Man, I need you.
Completely alone and unwanted x3
But I displeased you.

Completely alone and unwanted

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from Demolition Derby, track released August 23, 2018

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Maddi Mae Remington, Virginia

hi, this is a museum of a lot of the music i've made - the good and the bad.

my new song "die today" is totally different from the collection of songs i released in 2020. it's born out of just making music that felt good to me after hours at my music school/studio (sound house).

if you like the song, tell me about it please.
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